Here is the next installment of my Five Minute Free Writes Challenge.
The day dawns brightly with clouds dancing across the sky. I step out into the yard and look up to see a rainbow arching over our property. Blue skies peaking through the clouds promise a day full of endless possibilities. The chickens call asking me to open their pen so they can wander the yard and feast on all the creepy, crawly things living in the grass. Their calls beacon me, I am their keeper and they know my voice.
I am grateful for those four feathered breakfast makers. They need me but I need them more than they will ever know. They depend on me for clean water, food and a safe, clean coop. I need a reason to get up and get dressed. Keeps me putting one foot in front of the other. You see while my spirit is full with joy my heart feels the coming storm. The darkness that comes out of no where to try to kill, devour and destroy me from the inside out. I see it coming yet I can not stop the impending storm. The lies that I sometimes hear, whispered into my ear, from the evil one. Lies that are based in the truth of my past but are no longer true. I am not my past, it no longer defines me but occasionally it grabs me.
It’s at times like these, when I feel my weakest, I am made strong through the power that lives in me. A power greater than any darkness that can and will inevitable envelope me.
Some say my faith is lacking, if I truly walked with Jesus this darkness would not keep coming over me. I should be strong enough to fight the evil one. Truth is, I am not. There is no strength within my earthly flesh to combat the darkness that is called periodic major depression.
There is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus.
Count it all joy, my brethren, when you meet various trials, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness.
Be watchful, stand firm in your faith, be courageous, be strong. Let all that you do be done in love.
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